Interestingly, my dad is at work, my mom is taking a nap, I'm logged into the Internet and looking for things to do. Being away has been a good break, reminding me of what's really important. When I think about it, a lot of the things I do on the Internet are kinda pointless, except in how they help me to keep in touch with people. But now I'm wondering whether things like reading blogs and following plurk timelines really help that much.
After all, it's not really personal is it, reading someone's blog. Like, you think you know what's going on with your friend, but there are loads of things that are never blogged. I leave comments on blogs and plurks and then end up hardly ever having real conversations with my friends, which is pretty terrible. *resolves to do better*
Ever since I heard a month ago about Rheta Shan passing away in RL, it's made me feel that life is unpredictable and so fleeting, that I need to treasure whatever time I have with the people who are important to me because I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. At the airport on Thursday, I picked up a book about a wife whose husband suddenly dies from a brain tumour, leaving her to usher in her 30th birthday alone, her dreams in pieces... a story somewhat in line with my own thoughts lately.
The book's premise is poignant (although I'm not so into the way the writer tells the story). It makes me think of my parents... I can see them growing older before my eyes, although my dad is waaaaay fitter than me -- he goes mountain climbing and jungle trekking and does all kinds of outdoorsy stuff -- I can't imagine being without them. But knowing that they are growing older makes me realise I don't know how much longer I have with them, and that I should make sure they know how much I love them, so that I won't have regrets later.
Makes me think of Karl too, how we are each half-way around the world and separated by time zones, and every moment we can get together is precious. There never seems to be enough time to do all we want to do, say all we want to say. I try to cram it all in because I never want Karl to have a moment's doubt that he is loved and wanted and needed.
In a way, the very nature of an SL relationship causes one to treasure the now, because in an SL relationship it's not like you can plan for a future together, unlike in RL. In RL you can see yourself getting married (or living together), having kids, growing old, and generally moving into the future side-by-side... but in SL, it's hard to imagine what the future will be like, which makes the now all the more precious.
Something I've been thinking about a lot these days. Each day, whether or not you are spending it with your friends, our lives go on and events are happening all around the world. There's so much that going on in everybody's lives and it's impossible to catch up. One minute they could be smiling in their plurks/blogs/facebook but the next minute, you never know, something might be happening in real time.
It seems even more so in SL. They're so far away and some things can be so unpredictable. I guess all we can do is hold on to what we have tightly and embrace what we have now. :)
Hi ya Quaintly~!
I've just stumbled on your blogs and of course, being stalker me, i decided to read your blogs from the beginning. And i only have 1 thing to say:
Negaraku
Tanah tumpahnya darahku
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